Why i'm a man

Looking down at the broken pieces of glasses and wondering how to cover my ass, i saw my female russian colleague coming down the stairs with something that resembled a cake.. i was flattered, being my anniversary.
So i followed her into the office and there she was.. congratulating the few men in the office (thoughts running wild).. NOT for me anniversary but for MEN's DAY

For those, who are not familiar with 23rd of February tradition, here is the brief reference of the nature of the celebration:


Defender of the Fatherland Day (Russian: День защитника Отечества / Dyen' zashchitnika Otechestva, Ukrainian: День захисника Вітчизни) is a holiday observed in Russia, Ukraine,[1] Belarus and several other former republics of the Soviet Union. It is celebrated on February 23.

The holiday marks the date in 1918 during the Russian Civil War when the first mass draft into the Red Army occurred in Petrograd and Moscow. It was originally known as Red Army Day (Russian: День Красной Армии / Dyen' Krasnoy Armii). In 1949, it was renamed Soviet Army and Navy Day (Russian: День Советской Армии и Военно-Морского флота / Dyen' Sovyetskoy Armii i Voyenno-Morskogo flota). Following the fall of the Soviet Union in 1991, the holiday was given its current name.

Officially, as the name suggests, the holiday celebrates people who are serving or were serving the Russian Armed Forces (both men and women), but unofficially, nationally it has also more recently come to include the celebration of men as a whole, and to act as a counterpart of International Women's Day on March 8.

The holiday is celebrated with parades and processions in honor of veterans, and women also give small gifts to the Russian men in their lives, especially husbands (or boyfriends), fathers and sons. As a part of the workplace culture, women often give gifts to their male co-workers. Consequently, in colloquial usage, the holiday is often referred to as Men's Day (Russian: День Мужчин, Den' Muzhchin).

So i'm being congratulated for it!!!

Resurrection

Howdy Ya'll

Guess who's back from the dead?? yeah it'e alright..Dead Man Walking..
It's exactly been roughly 8 fuckin months since i've written somethings here.
Good to be back i guess, with more Fiasco's in me pathetic life..

Guess you already know ,the year started extremely fucked up for me.. debt,family,debt and some other miscellaneous shit(s)

Here i am, new job, new car.. but it's just another illusion... what's beneath all that.. you're soon gonna find out..i'm a be writing my own version of 'A series of unfortunate events'

so yeah.. this is to officially let you know that i'm still 'Alive' both in this fucked up world and in this virtual Sanctuary..

Cheers

Cause and Effect

What the fuck am i living for??
I look at my self in the fuckin mirror and i feel sick.
I've achieved nothing, nothing that can actually make me feel useful.
I hate my fuckin self even more!!
I have no paper qualification, have no fuckin savings, working hard for just to pay off fuckin bills
This is not how it's supposed to be.. something fucked up and it's obviously me..
Am i here to waste the fuckin space or to fuck up people's lives??
I should be fuckin Satan then..
where's the cause for this effect??
Why should others suffere because of me??
i don't fuckin want it to happen at all but it somehow does happen to the people i care about the most...
People tell to forgive myself.. what the fuck are they talking about??
you don't pardon criminals? how do you expect to forgive yourself when the world doesn't forgive you??
and to add a bit more spice they got me fuckin married!! what did that poor girl do to deserve me??

It's enough.... there must be a fuckin resolve for all this..
One way or the fucking other.. something has to be done to stop all this.